Unhinged

I was in love, but with a woman

And I never understood how that wasn't human.

So I slogged through life, without acceptance,

With pinpricks of tears and the feeling of ineptness.

I tried to tell her I was in love

But she dismissed me in reciprocation

And Called me an abomination.

So I walked away with my baggage of insecurities;

Anxiety, my friend, decided not to leave me.

I felt like I was a deformed creature

So I tried to reform,

I didn't want to be a breacher

Of the society, of the family, I was done being the dark horse!

What had I even done wrong? I was just in love! Then why did she hate

me? Why did they hate me?!

I never understood.

Confusion, grief, anger

Took minutes to turn themselves on me.

Self hatred, my friend, also became a part of me.

So I walked away as far as I could, withdrawing my emotions.

And here I stand unhinged, and maybe a little broken.